Over time, the funny transformation became a profoundly transformative process.
Almost every shoot left an imprint on my soul. I was able to see my devils and manifest my inner goddesses.
art therapy
At the end of 2018, I discovered the therapeutic power of colors on my skin. I let go for the first time, without pressure to succeed and with no idea of the result. I painted instinctively and used everything available to depict the particular feeling. I was black, blue, and spat blood. I screamed and cried. Because it was so absurdly liberating, I laughed a lot too. It was a celebration of terrible feelings. I love the resulting series! It was the beginning of something new. Art therapy on your own skin. You can hardly paint deeper than that. When I put something heavy on my skin, the feeling feels seen and subsides. Especially the bad feelings. The information seeps through the skin. At the end, the color ceremoniously disappears down the drain.
That's why so many of my projects slide into the darker direction. It's very liberating for me when my dark feelings find light. The devils are allowed to come out and play in a safe environment.
self-discovery
Photo shoots provide a safe space to try out different characters that emerge from within.
This allows me to see myself in all of these roles and get to know them as individual people.
What characteristics does she have, what does she like, what does she not like? Where are the limits of this personality.
The more I get involved with individual characters, the more detailed the stories I am told are.
It is one of many forms of reflection.
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BORDERS
Many of my shoots exceeded my previous limits.
It started with me being ashamed to be naked in front of other people. Showing more than my cleavage was a limit for me. Being naked was something exclusive and taboo. It was a problem for me. I wanted to break this taboo for my own feelings and finally feel comfortable and free when other people saw me. I couldn't have imagined that it could feel as normal as it does today.
I crossed other exciting physical limits during photo shoots in cool temperatures, in uncomfortable weather conditions, and in cold water. I have never been ill as long as I have taken care of myself and not done more than my immune system could handle. In difficult conditions, everyone involved has to work with the utmost concentration and communicate well.
Such shootings are especially fun when you are emotionally stressed.
Countless boundaries can be crossed if you let yourself go, let go and dissolve into the present moment. The results are priceless.
A photo shoot with such extreme styling can be a profound experience. It allows people to put themselves in a role that they might not take on in everyday life. This temporary break with one's own personality allows you to discover new sides of yourself. The use of strong make-up, body painting and unusual accessories gives a completely new look and reveals hidden facets of one's own identity.
During the photoshoot, people often feel stronger, more confident and braver. They enter a world of imagination and creativity that they don't normally explore. This feeling of transformation can have a lasting positive effect on self-perception. The person sees in the mirror and in the picture that they are more than just the sum of their everyday roles - they can be an artist, a warrior or a witch.
